Its about trust that is always the cause of every problems.... Hmmmph....
★AhPuN Lah !!! ★™
Monday, July 6
Monday, June 1
Life is indeed hard bt harder if we always complaint or bring down others
I just came to think about it.... We as frenz/ bruders call each other that pronamed , bt wats the term of that meanin, just call it a word without meaning.... Its more of like frenzo ..... Or maybe i call it membership still now it aint important to me.... I think im better of alone..... I cn see the things im doing working.... Mkin this commitment like a membership ,i want to come i come.... Hhahahahhas.... Then they come like askin for help bt when they are wealthy , have they ever think of coming and bother..... Now im makin that way..... Al about urself nownita about myself already ..... Work to my own success.... Then c for urself.... Where u stand .... Ask for help i rather say this to u, now im helping myself .... I cnt help much .... How long cn u last in a home like hat expecting money droppin frm sky, aint werkin hard and yearning a goodlife.... Call it thug life.... To me call it dumbshit.... Shit worth better then ur life.... So now back to my own shit.... Growing seeds to make my life bloom once again just depending on urself , finding water to plant and praying to god to make the sun rise everyday thru my sins ....
Monday, May 25
Sadness hint reveled yet secret remains
Just be indirect live with it make it a challenge face the opportunity given , make a good one , time not to slack bt keep going , i believe i cn do it , wif the right commitments right mindset lock to the golden goal , ill just bang down or give a hell of a beating to anyone , who comes in my way and now ill start proving it.... My silent is like apsyhglym ....
Sunday, May 24
To my dearest bitch .... Kawazika.... I appreciate u alot, thru hard times wif me .... U brought me up till i forget the parachute.... N witness myself the submit aint high yet it drop .... U change me alot.... Moving over frm dem chicks to meet me wif my beloved ex gf .... N now we r back on track .... Ft 3009 e u did me well now go to ur new owner .... Im now wif a better yet still the best bike and the first bike ive touch coming to a year and resuming the old love of myself....
Things happen from the past
Did some stupid things took up to many loans , stuck some how and felt the submission of life.... As a human i admit it aint easy to divide urself to many commitments .... Im happy atleast no matter how family is there for me and 2ndly naera .... I appreciate ur precense .... Unlike ros.... There to only witness the pain till u submit .... And then bring u down .... Not even motivatin... Time for me to get the 2 last goals for 3015.... N im gonna to the future and forcefully leave the un-needed burden ....
Makin things right for the last time
Guess the time is almost coming to an end of misery.... The last payment to an old fren and bye2 misery hello new life....
Saturday, February 26
hoping that the day will be a good one....
bt it seems its juz a fucked up world that i'm living in......
problems and stress coming shooting up upon me ......
and its like no mercy on me ......
everday i cn only say is good morning reality.....
racist , hatred and full of hypocrite......
its like fuck .....
juz getting myself in this shit....
haish .....
Sunday, November 7
Thursday, October 21
i've been bz lately..... juz posted out so yeah......
i'm werking at NOVENA PHQ ...... hahahhs ......
as SSO Officer..... hahahhahs ...... im so happy now im out ...... of HTA .....
this is how i look at my last day of HTA ..... my post out Ceremony.......


Tuesday, October 5
been BZ after my P.O.C .....
hahahhas.... ive been posted out as an SSO officer.....
some kinda guard duty ..... or people know it as prowlers......
im located a t PHQ which is at thomson ......
hahhahahahs ......
yeah ..... and i miss all my camp lifes during BMT ......
aarrgghhh !!!! which i cn turn bax time .......
bt nvrmind ......
miss u guys ns . 13 ......
Saturday, August 7
Sori friends been busy wif my SYOG Deployment....
At "A" Division which is at cantoment ....
Hmmmmmphs...... To put me on more at stress is NDP coming.... Haish.... So many events this yr I'm in.... To many things to handle at one go.... Once September is over ... I'm a free man with my posting .. Hopefully I got the postin that I ask and I always wanted... Which is SOC... Or police coast guard .... Haish .... Bt atleast a stress is over which is no more training in HOME TEAM ACADEMY as a trainee .... Hahahahs .... Not a TSC bt an SC alredi.... Hahahahahshahs.... Now only left with 1 yr 5 mths to be exact to ORD ..... Hahahasd.... Time fly so fast and I survived my shit .... Hahahahs... From boys to men , frm a criminal to a Law Enforcer .... Hahahahs .... Way a shock.... Hahahahs.... Hmmm.... Know some people which is fun .... I gotta know a gerl by the name of lyssa .... Talk to her frm 1 am till now .... And it's like pretty amazing when we share our thoughts and found out that we have things in common .... Unique .... Hahahahas ....
Till here then catch up more tmr aiite
Sunday, July 4
Sunday, May 30
have meanings to me ..... and the words of my goals .......or part of my life !!!
hahahhahahs .......
1) Bad Boys :
Im juz part of it now ..... serving the National Service as a policeman ..... haish ..... watch gonna do ...... from some old shit till one of the shots ...... bt this is not wat i want ..... is only wat i get .....
hahahhahahahs ..... 9 more weeks after deduction of the weekends .......
and its the end of the training of my studies , marchin , excersicing in HOME TEAM ACADEMY !!!!!!! ARRRGGHHH !!!!! Cnt wait to say the word " P.O.C " OOOO !!!!!
2) I wanna be a billionare :
Two years to come im flyin to tokyo (japan), to survey my studies fees there , pluz the living status there how is it .... and so .... hahahahs ...... gona to le cordon bleu ...... hahahah , an instution which is recognised by the industry of my career line .....
This is gonna be after my "O.R.D" hahahhahas ..... long way to go ..... this is juz a dream ......
hahahhahs ...... cnt wait if i cn achieve it .......
3) Memories :
All the things that i've done , which is bad , the sweet moments as bro , all is juz left is memories , this is a dedication to" Arwah Din Bunga " , and i promise myself to keep his legacy alife , he earn my respect from the start , he's juz born to lead , and to pass down the knowledge , w/o him im not who i am ......he's a bro not a foe' ...... aiiite ...... bt i hope he's somewhere nice and he'll Rest. In. Peace , i'll pray for him ......
4) My way or the highway !!! :
This songs meaning is a follow up from the third , and he tought me to stand up and not be a pussy in the society , now without him for all my bitch bro , who wanna race , im ready in july , let me celebrate my 19th birthday , and im gona be ready to Race & die , coz i'll be givin all out , and this is the saying to all cuttings in sgpore , im Nizam a.k.a AHPUN DIDI !!!!
u'll know me riding with somthin fast , and this is my say " MY WAY OR THE HIGHWAY "
aiiiiet ........
5) Not Alone :
When i break down , all the things i forget upon doing and feel like giving up , i feel lost , bt i was brought up in the proper manner with my bros who thought me upon choosing the rite one guidin me through , theyre are juz my echo in my head ...... like silent warns, bt thnx to say to my FCUKIN EX !!!! im not alone always coz i still have my bro's !!!!
aiiiite .......
hahahhahas
Saturday, May 22
hahahahhas .....
busy with my ns life , with the training for the NDP .....
and its damn tiring !!!!
arrrghhh !!!!
how i wish i could go back to school .......
haish .....
miss my classmates lots ......
bt i still have some of them stickin up with me,
and they are ..... Eddy Tan, Dennis Tan, Cheng Peng, Lizhen
WTH !!!!
we are in the same intake .....
only that two of them from fit squad lah .....
hahahhahas ......
bt then ..... all four of us in the same marching contigent for the G.O.H
hahahahhas ...... NDP 2010 ...... cnt wait to get it over with .....
hmmmmm ...... bt then the most happiest part is to fire some bullets out of the
Rifle(SAR21) ...... hahahhahs .... even though its blanks ..... i tell u guys ....
its juz fun gettin ur ears drum ..... shot and goin deaf .....
hahahhahas ......
i'm the 2nd column guy on the 6th row .....
catch me up life guys ........
till here then .....
chalos.....
Monday, May 3
Friday, April 16
- life
- speed
- love
- gods appreciation of him
this is for u bro.
DIN BUNGA
always part of me
KRR 150 ZX
gona ride it
after june
cnt ride yours
bt gonna keep ur legacy
in BP & rising up by december
in SG !!!
RACE is juz part of LIFE !!!
Friday, March 26
Book Out ady lorr......
Sunday, February 28
Then at 0900 houR.... Goin in for the intake,
9th march enlisted .... It's the day from a pussy like me ....
Be a man .... Hahahahs.... Time to face reality.....
My bros long lasted inside thier camps which is BOB & KIAN ANN....
Wonder how is thier life as army man ..... Hmmmph ....
Do they do well inside to fullfill thier FI( fitness instructor) wants???
Doin pumpin, situps , pull ups , and 2.4 jogs within 12 mins ..... Haish....
I'm juz lucky to have myself called up to HOME TEAM ACADEMY.....
Hahahahs.... Bt after I heard my ferns who are seniors at home team done with their NS....
Thier training is quite though ..... Runing like a dog .... Hahahs ....
Niwae it's dogs of the government .... Hahahahs .... Not brown bt in blues ....
I cnt believe wat they say....
And guess wat .... The most boring part is ....
Hahahahs.... U guys who use to know me dun mind from aniway ....
I'm a guy who cnt study by the book .... Ma'am and those who have taught me bfore....
I'm goin back to classes studying about laws ....,
AaaaRrrrGgggHhhh !!!!! Damn .... Study will nvr end .....
Hahahahs ..... And I must pass the test given bfore my 3 mths ....
Someone who rilli wants to sit with me at any cafe and help me out readin .... And make me
remember all the words and sentence bfore my test .... Hahahas .... Anyone .....
Hahahahs .... Till here then .....
Haish..... I dunno there is like some fuckin thing in myself....
Hmmm..... Bt I miss the times havin sweat in my pants in the kitchen it's like an addiction...
I fall in love with the career.... Bt am I losing that .... Haish....
Sometimes .... I have this confusion which is I either be a policemen or to be a chef ,
but do u think I should be a cop??? Huh????
It sounds like fucking weird with my attitude.... Hahahahs.....
I dunno lah rite....
Bt let me think ..... Bout my confusion in life ..... This is the biggest confusion I had....
Worst then having love .....
I cnt afford to make a wrong dcision.....
I have this thinking .... I wanna earn my capital first ....
The. I would like to go abroad ..... To study deeper in this course ....
Coz I dun only like cooking .... Bt I cn draw .... I been thinking of drawing,
using spoons forks and cutlerys on plate .... Do u think it's possible
anyone ???? Hmmmmph..... I dun think it ain't possibe coz nothin Is impossible....
If an artist draws on soft surface y not a hard one it has support ....
And why not chefs do It too ....
Coz chefs are doctors in food, artist in plating ..... Managers in food costing....
And we cn be alot more ..... Haish....
Y must juz NS be the one Which is a new obstruction ....
To my dream, career path my wife ....
This is what I learnt and kept deep inside me....
Humans do have a choice .... Once mad dun turn back....
Haish.... Bt this is juz like a dilemma .....
I rilli wanna cook again.... Cn I come back after 5 years ??? Haish....
Do u think I cn still cook then ????
Haiyo.... I got little time to think ....
8 days more to suffer with fresh air and I'm Gonna make a new leaf which
is gonna lust me in NS , at HTA then I dunno which postin am I gonna be located at ..... Hmmmphs ....
Will update all of u readers .....
Friday, February 26
hahahahaks.....
hmmmmm .....
to tell all my frenz im goin into NS soons.....
its a count down of 1 week 2 days to be exact .....
hahahahas .....
goin to home team Academy ......
hahahahs ....
gona be a recruit (policemen)
hahahhas .....
till here then.....
love the people and gonna miss all my love one .....
Thursday, October 1
had the worst Raya this year !!!!
and had a bad day yesterday .....
it was like a nightmare ......
haish .....
wish i could have not met anymore gerls ......
haish ...... now im gona make my face drop .....
i may pass my bike liscense .....
bt to have a gerl .....
ooooh no .....
i failed my IA ady ......( industrial attchment )
quited the course .....
now concentrating on my liscense ......
haish ....
thought that there's no more probs ......
bt then this prob emerge ......
haish ....
thing i should have leave u alone ......
bt nvm ....
its done ......
if anyone who reads this and taken my words......
im sori ......
mayb im better of alone ......
mingling ......
and mayb ......
im juz who i am .....
bt ur the best even though u gave me the worst ......
best as in ..... hard to get thingy......
aiiiite ..... till here .....
Wednesday, September 16
Sunday, September 6
yesterday ......
we talk bout the fasting thingy ....
i told them what i meant by >> "1:1 "
i went to enjoy myself wif my bro, dink , syawal & aliff aziz .....
we went to "O" bar during ladies night ......
i had a great time ..... of releasing my stress .....
takin up Tequila shots , jugs after jugs of bourbon coke .......
had my day done .....
bt im not as happy as other guys ......
i dun feel the real love .....
getting to grine the ladies was fun bt not even a touch to the heart ....
was i fallen for .......
i got to know a lady by the name of diana .......
it was around the time i had probs ....
i went online to look out for ladies i cn ask to get to know to make my partner .....
her name caught my attention ......
saw her pics .....
hmmmm .....
she's kinda hardy type of gerl ......
thats wat i like ......
hard to get .....
bt when u get ......
u'll nvr regret .......
haish .....
bt things start to happen .....
she was bz then ......
i was sa lil upset of the breaking news .....
bt i know life is unfair .....
somethings nids to go .....
some hurts even if its for a short moment .......
bt as i get to know her ......
by talkin otp ......
its like .....
as the clock ticks as hours passes by .....
she's like a magnet pulling me down .....
and she's the one made me fall ......
haish ......
bt i was shocked to hear her askin me all the question ....
bax at me ....
its like throwin a match w/o noticing that theres gasoline .....
hahahahhas .......
she throw at me bax questions .....
like WTF lor ......
haish ....
bt i like that type of lady to be my " G !!!"
hahahahhas ......
hey ..... if u read this .....
im sori .....
its juz personel feeling which i try to express out ......
aiiiite .......
after all its nice knowing someone like u deeanaa !!!!
ARE U STILL DOWN ????
hopefully ur not aiiites......

Tuesday, August 11
and ya .....
chef's all welcome me bax to the kitchen ......
im sori ..... if i made u all suffer bruders and sistas .....
im bax in the team ......
so ya ..... lets go through this tgether .....
im fully healed .....
actually not so .....
still coughing ......
bt the Flu is gone ......
at last .....
i love this type of feeling .....
which is like juz came bax after a fall of the sick ......
hehehehs.......
im bax .....
and gonna take care of myself .....
to not damage myself ......
try to fight my sickness ......
and i want to push myself to the limit cn i ????
hhahahahas.......
niwae .....
anyone ......
this saturday free to club ?????
hahahahs.....
tyme to party people ......
hahahhahas.........
hmmmmm ......
and now ......
i finish updating......
updates soons aiiite......
gotta go go ......
Thursday, August 6
its like WTF !!!!!
the Flu pulling me down .....
with all those dirty stuffs i hate .......
my nose is so runny argghhh !!!! bt nw less ady ......
bt the cough ..... killin me sia !!!!
arrrggghh !!!!!
haish got a 7 days MC !!!!
and thats a bad sign !!!!
Wish i could go bax to work .....
cnt let my bro's of work and all my mates there .......
haish ......
endin this MC leave till this Sat .......
plz .......
i nid energy to regain this lost .....
i don't want to fail this IA ..........
arrrrggghhh !!!!!!
haven't take up bike lesson somemore ......
haish .........
bt check my TP test ady ......
its on the 17 september .....
cn i make it up there ......
haish ......
tday i go for theory leh .....
coz im feeling a bit better ......
then mayb im takin my Theory trial test ......
and gonna book my riding theory test .......
after that ...... ready to roll ......
that part everyday go work want ......
hahahhahas .......
i want to have that "P" plate ridin feeling .......
hahahhahas ......
hope to heal soon ........
till here ......
upodates sooons ......
Monday, July 27
was the most memoriest moments .....
wif my chef's ......
wat a hell of a birthday ......
its like making u go high up in the sky .....
and bax down to earth like asteriod ........
smashin myself straight down to the center of earth .......
hahahhahsa ......
attchment is great .....
love the place even though im always been nagged at .....
so wat .....
common give me juz a lil more time .....
gaining my speed .....
my skills ......
then .....
gona do something of my kind ......
my colours of food .....
the secret in me ......
the passion .....
the love and cherishness of my heart to the food .......
aniwae .....
its nice to have u all ......
FATIN , CHEF ROHAIZAD , CHEF CHRIS, CHEF KENETH & SALLEH .......
thnx to IGUANA RESTRAUNT for the drinks .......enjoy it ..... lots
w/o u guys .....
live wouldn't be so happening ......
fatin ......
i'll keep the promise and i will go it through wif u together .......
common ...... my culinarians mate ......
we have only a few months more left .....
lets buck up ......
and show our chefs .....
that we from ITE have the value .......
its how u love cooking ......
and have all the pain u get .......
u'll never regret .......
meet u guys bax in school during GRADUATION .......
miss the old times sitting in class .......
till here ..... i have updates......
gonna update soon ......